Sitonicsa — Breakup Pillow

I've been carrying this whole her too long
Trying to be brave, trying to be strong
Everybody looks at me and thinks that
I'm doing fine while
I break when shadows creep
I read your message till the words went pale
Then set the phone face down beside my hand
I told my sister
I am doing well.
I'll fold in tears into a kitchen towel
I have been carrying this whole hurt
With a smile that barely stays in place if
I let one little breath come out,
I might fall apart in front of you.
I am breaking down.
Healing from all the hurt.
Call my name softly.
Make the hurt disappear
All this hurt
I hide underneath the heart.
Tonight
I need somebody to let me in.
I am breaking down, healing from all the hurt.
I do not need answers.
I just need your call.
If my heart goes quiet
Hold me through the sound
I am breaking.
I am breaking down
Without you oh
I've been walking with my shoulders bent low.
Holding on to secrets that i
Shouldn't know.
Packed them in the suitcase.
Locked it with the key.
Now
This heavy wooden box is burying me.
I
Wore my brave face to the green market square.
Bought two oranges.
Forgot why I went.
The teller asked me if
I needed help.
I said no thank you and paid in silence while hiding tears streaming
Down my face
I have been carrying this whole hurt
With tears streaming down my face like a
River that's running all over the place
I cannot hide it and
I cannot stay.
I
Watch all my happiness wash right away if
I let one little breath come out, i
Might fall apart
In front of you
I am breaking down from
All the hurt.
Call my name softly.
Make
The hurt disappear
All this hurt
I had underneath the heart tonight.
I need somebody to let me in.
I
Am breaking down.
Heal from all the hurt.
I do not need answers.
I just need
Your call.
If my heart goes quiet, hold
Me through the sound
I am breaking.
I am breaking down
Without you
Do not tell me
I will be okay.
Just sit
Beside me while
I find my way.
Take this
Trampling from my head tonight
Stay until the morning gives me light.
I
Am breaking down.
Healing from all the hurt.
Call my name softly.
Make the hurt disappear
All this hurt
I hide underneath the heart.
Tonight
I need somebody to let me in.
Tonight
I am breaking down here from
All the hurt.
I do not need answers.
I
Just need your call.
If my heart goes
Quiet, hold me through the sound
I am breaking.
I am breaking down
No more tears streaming down my face
I'm going to leave this lonely place
The sun is coming up.
The rain is going
To stop
No more tears
Just peace
I am healing
I am healing now
From her